I've been taking my mornings slow this week, just to give myself some time to unwind. When I was less active on social media, I had so much fun simply enjoying the present. Once you start becoming more active online, that part of you gets sacrificed a little. Most of the time, you end up focusing on your phone or laptop to edit your content for hours. I love being creative, but I don’t want to feel overwhelmed by everything.
That is why I have been enjoying making matcha lattes lately. Whisking it, weighing the matcha — everything requires focus and helps you stay present.
Anyway, I have been trying to finish this book, but I keep getting distracted by Netflix. Hopefully, I can finish it by the end of this month. This evening, I found myself reminiscing about the good times I had in Brisbane. If I were in Australia right now, I’d probably already be heading into the city, relaxing at an open-air cafe, and enjoying my book. I really miss those moments.
Speaking of Brisbane, one of my biggest regrets is not taking any pictures with my uni friends. Yes, none at all. Where I was studying, there weren’t many Melayu. If there were any, they were usually postgraduate students. So in my course, my close friends were Australians (Sarah and Yasmine) and an African American named Matu. We stuck together from our first year at uni until the last. I miss them a lot, especially today. Thank God for social media! That is how we have managed to stay in touch.
Wild how time keeps sprinting like it is late for a meeting. I know I've said this before — probably here, on Twitter, Instagram, maybe even shouted it into a void but seriously, life is moving like it is trying to win a race I didn’t sign up for. But life does feel moving way too fast. Speaking of time flying, my husband and I are somehow almost at our 7 year anniversary this October. I swear we just blinked and boom, seven years!
It even got me thinking about our future — about children and everything that comes with that hope. But before I get too deep into that, I wanted to share something that’s been on my mind. I recently posted a few questions on Threads, never expecting them to gain much attention, but they did. And honestly, I feel a bit guilty for not being able to respond to everyone.
The post was about couples who have been married for years and are still in the trying-to-conceive phase. I asked how they manage their emotions especially while watching their friends' children grow up around them. Some of the responses were incredibly moving, full of resilience and quiet strength. Others were raw, honest, and, at times, deeply painful to read. It reminded me how complex and personal this journey is, and how many people are silently carrying that weight every day.
Reading those replies opened my eyes in ways I didn’t expect. They gave me a new perspective on life, on patience, and on what it means to keep hoping through uncertainty.
Tahun ini tahun ke-9 saya berkahwin. Alhamdulillah, it is going to get better. Sometimes I do feel such a blessing that Allah tak rezekikan anak lagi. I shifted my mindset, sibukkan diri, simpan duit and now both of my parents tak berapa sihat. I can always go and help them. Itu pun satu rezeki dapat jaga parents.
This was written by @misstengkumia via Thread.
These women, mashaAllah, are incredibly strong. I was truly moved and inspired by their resilience and courage. Some face an even deeper pain — the heartbreak of not being able to get pregnant. Just imagine carrying that weight every single day, knowing you might never experience pregnancy. It has profoundly changed how I view my life and the strength it requires.
Sometimes we focus so much on what we’re missing in life that we forget to appreciate everything we already have. Honestly, when I was typing those questions on Threads, I hesitated to post them. Because, let’s be honest, I’m not comfortable showing vulnerability especially in such a public, online space. But somehow, I'm glad I did.
Sharing and hearing these stories reminded me that everyone’s journey is different, and that strength often looks like quiet perseverance. Life moves fast, and it is easy to get caught up in what we don’t have. But there’s so much power in gratitude and in embracing each moment as it comes.
If you’re going through something difficult, know that you are not alone. Sometimes, the bravest thing we can do is simply to keep hoping and keep showing up — for ourselves and for those we love. Thank you for letting me share a piece of this journey with you.
That is all for now. I'll see you in my next post inshaAllah.
Sending you love and hugs,
Ieka Ahmad.
